October 31, 2002


spoony | from inside the mind of krix at 10:27 AM
October 30, 2002
halloween wishes


I hope everyone has a happy and safe Halloween tomorrow.
Expect it to be quiet around here.
I recommend surfing some of the blogs in the sidebar, some people are "dressing up" their blogs and everything.



By Cracker-from the Forever CD

You could never be
What you wanted to be
'Cause sweetheart it takes time
Someday you're gonna shine
You'll see

You'll be a Russian acrobat
You'll be like Burt Bacharach
You come to the party, you say "What's new pussycat?"
Someday you're gonna shine
You'll see

Don't wanna talk about it
You come around to tell it
You're beautiful can't you see?
Someday you're gonna shine
You'll see

Someday you're gonna shine
Someday you're gonna shine

Someday you're gonna shine (you're gonna shine)
(aaah) Someday you're gonna shine

Someday you're gonna shine
(aaah) Yeah someday you're gonna shine

You're gonna shine (Someday),
you're gonna shine
(you're gonna), you're gonna shine (shine)
(Yeah), yeah, you're gonna shine
(aaah) Someday you're gonna shine
(Someday) Yeah, someday (you're gonna)
you're gonna shine (shine),
(yeah) you're gonna shine,
someday you're gonna shine
(aaah) Someday, You're gonna shine

it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 11:36 PM | comments (1)
This Week from Brezsny

(cool, I can put links in the titles...)

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): I figure you've served enough time as a scapegoat to last you forever. You've shouldered the blame and accepted the responsibility far more than your fair share. Therefore, dear Virgo, in accordance with the laws of karma and by decree of the cosmic enforcers of balance, you are hereby authorized to be a prince or princess this Halloween. You're further entitled to corral a volunteer to dress up as your "Prugelknaben." In old Germany, this was a companion who served as a stand-in scapegoat, getting spanked every time the prince or princess misbehaved.

I volunteer to be Keanu's Prugelknaben, but only if he does the spanking.

it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 06:05 PM | comments (3)
Sky '91

The lovely kaz sent these scans from a Sky Magazine 1991 article.

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In more recent news, if you go over to Miho's site, she has some Dogstar pictures from Japan that were published in a japanese magazine.
They're small but nice. I really dig that shirt.

media spot | from inside the mind of krix at 10:34 AM | comments (4)
October 29, 2002




Watch it.

Oh, and Daylight Savings Time can bite me. I completely fell asleep last night and didn't catch The Kiefer on Leno last night, but I'm up early enough to have fucking Tim Allen inflicted on me on the Today Show?


off topic | from inside the mind of krix at 08:31 AM | comments (11)
October 28, 2002
Keanu Slept Here

Thank you kaz, for this scan from Sunday's paper down in Sydney.

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Looks like the penthouse apartment that Keanu stayed in while filming The Matrix Roloaded and Revolutions is up for sale.
You know, if just 4 million of you would buy something from the keanuvision online store, I could swing it.
I'd throw a party and invite you all and everything.

media spot | from inside the mind of krix at 10:30 AM | comments (4)
October 27, 2002

Dear Santa...

Want so very much.

spoony | from inside the mind of krix at 05:08 PM | comments (6)
The Full Neo


The full, uncropped versions of the set of 6 Matrix Teaser posters can be seen over at the official site.
Thanks to Rhonda for the tip.

Of course, it's lovely to see his whole face, but as far as visual impact goes, I think the cropped versions have much more.

In Dogstar news, Miho has added a really great report from the Osaka show over at her site, 999.squares.net.

red pill | from inside the mind of krix at 11:37 AM | comments (4)
October 26, 2002


Oh, and in further traumatization of krix: if you want to read the after-effects of my watching "Requiem for a Dream" tonight....read on.

I promise to only freak out a little, here.

Jesus Christ.
Am I supposed to feel like going out and parking my car on a hill of broken glass, putting it in neutral and laying my head underneath the rear tire?
How the hell did they keep people from just running out into traffic straight from the theater?
[::tries to type from fetal position.fails::]
My god - What a great movie. I'm sure I'll have nothing but praise from the heart for the makers and the actors of this film once I've actually recovered from seeing it.
But I don't (won't) want to talk about it.
It's like bungee jumping. I did it once and I'll never do it again.
This movie rubs salt in wounds, I feel like I'm going to throw up.
I refuse to watch the deleted scenes unless someone can guarentee that there's an alternate happy ending in there somewhere.
Art is best when it makes you feel. No matter what it is.
I actually like this.
It's good for me.
I need to scream but I'll wake the cat, and he's such a cute thing when he sleeps.
.....and I need a cute thing right now.
This movie should be mandatory viewing for everyone on the planet.

I just got everything nicely rewired and now I've blown a circuit, dammit.
I need to call someone I love.
Or something.

tribe | from inside the mind of krix at 08:09 PM | comments (4)
Sim Scandal

First off, a huge thank you to Skits, who sent me the missing file so I could have the original Krix Sim on my game. In true Hollywood style, the others don't mention that I've "had work done" but just say I look fabulous...
I decided those Dogstar guys needed someone to run the household, so I moved myself in.

check out the poster!

Here I am going over one of Keanu's potential scripts. The bikini helps me think.

Stealing SimKisses is always fun...

sweet, eh?

Taking care of these guys is a lot of work, and not without its problems.


Thankfully, my hero is there to save the day.
But look out, that's not the only fire that's going to need putting out...

For me? You shouldn't have!

Isn't Bret sweet? He shows his appreciation for all I do with a little gift.
But wait....Bret has ulterior motives. Man, that guy puts the "dog" in Dogstar!
Of course I'm helpless to resist such charm.

Uh-oh, this ain't cool....is it?

Judge me if you will, but face it....one girl in a house with these guys? It was bound to happen.
Oh, and look at THIS!

Rob stirs the proverbial plot that thickens

That fink! Rob immediately runs upstairs to rat us out to Keanu.

I'm so busted.

It gets worse...

At least it's not a whole litter

But all we did was kiss, I swear!
And....um....is that kid blonde? Cripes.
Of course Rob claps with delight at my dilemma.

simulated | from inside the mind of krix at 02:27 PM | comments (5)
This month's calendar is Dedicated to KD

Because I called her at the crack of freaking dawn this morning, because I'm an idiot. And because....well, just because.

doodles | from inside the mind of krix at 09:44 AM | comments (5)
October 25, 2002
Buy something, already

By this cute bear and more at keanuvision's store

There are some new items over at the keanuvision store, including this cute widdle bear (awwwww!) and....ehem....thong underwear.

And I'm going to make this offer.
I'm going to try and make any southern California and (of course) Vegas shows that Dogstar (hopefully!) might play in the upcoming future. If I'm there and I see you throw a keanuvision thong up on stage, I'll buy you a drink.
If he picks them up and looks at them, I'll buy you 3 drinks. If he puts them on his head? You'll drink on me for the entire evening.

the site | from inside the mind of krix at 01:17 PM | comments (6)
So what am I holding if that isn't the ripcord?

I had strange and exciting dreams last night.
I have now changed my position regarding doing a tandem skydive with Mr. Reeves.
Please update your notes.



Here's a little something for Ass Friday...

Oh, he's packin' heat alright...just no gun

(pics from kcrl.net's capture collection)

it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 11:00 AM | comments (4)
October 24, 2002
This and That

This is some sort of trading-type card that I came across on eBay...no, I didn't buy it.

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I can't make any sense of the ratings system on this, and yes, I had to look up sartorial.

That article below is a humor piece that can be found on the back page of this month's issue of WIRED magazine (thanks to "t"):

"FOUND: Artifacts from the Future"
~by Thomas Goetz

November 14, 2081

Rebirth Announcements
KEANU REEVES / Actor - Director

Keanu Reeves, an actor once revered for his gift of nuance and a director who helped usher in 4-D film, was reborn yesterday at Cedars-Sinai Medport in Los Angeles Metroplex. Doctors said Reeves will be rapid-raised to 31 years of age, and allotted the customary 15-month Celebrity Lifespan. After era orientation, he will star in the remake of "Johnny Mnemonic", planned for Imax release next spring.

Now scarcely remembered outside film-studies learning networks and 2-D revival houses, Reeves was one of the leading actors and filmmakers of the late 20th and early 21st centuries. In "Little Buddha" and "Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure", he played on anxieties of the day like enlightenment and time travel. His role in "Point Break", though overlooked at the time, is cited by historians for its portrayal of pre-secessionary Californian culture. And in the three prescient "Matrix" trilogies, Reeves portrayed Neo, a messianic hero who battled a malevolent artificial intelligence - a scenario that eerily foreshadowed the failed AI Uprising of 2033.

In the final film of the nine-part series, Neo is revealed as an artificial agent himself: the plot twist incited the General Strike of 2013, which shut down the tri-nation area for four months. After three years in seclusion, Reeves returned with the epic "Life of Geffen", winning Academy Awards in 2017 for Best Audience-Participation Segment and Best Cross-Platform Marketing Campaign.

In March 2025, whiles Reeves was directing the sequel to "A Man Called Biffy", his first Best Picture winner, he suffered a fatal cloud-surfing accident. "A Woman Called Buffy" was released posthumously and also won a Best Picture Oscar; the film now stands alongside David Fincher's "Cinetubbies" and Ang Lee's "Dolemite" as a classic of '20s experimental 4-D cinema.

After wrapping "Johnny Mnemonic", Reeves will reside at the Santa Fe Metroplex Post-Rebirth Chill-Out Centre. Upon rebirth, Reeves' first word was: "Whoa."


it wahs , media spot | from inside the mind of krix at 05:02 PM | comments (3)
Rockin' the house, Dogstyle

I found a great site, 7Deadlys!ms, that has all kinds of fun goodies so I moved the Dogstar s!ms to a new pad so they can concentrate on their music. I even got Keanu a new toy.

Keanu's new Harley goes where it pleases

Don't look at me, dude. I'm sure you aren't supposed to park it on the grass. Bret's gonna throw a fit.

But Rob couldn't be happier, he's finally got his drumset!

Rob Mailhouse, Thunder God

So down to business.....

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Rob decides that we've gone too damn long without a Dogstar video.
I'm ready for my close-up, Mr. Mailhouse!

I knew he wanted to direct

The wood floor doesn't look right, though....maybe something more funky, yet accoustic...

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Gaaahhh! No.
How about a starfield effect?

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Nice, but I spent a lot of money on those amp stacks, I want to see them!
And we'd better have them bring Keanu another one, he tends to blow them up.

We need something simple, yet eye-catching....
Dogstar Rocks the hizzouse!

Let's rock!

simulated | from inside the mind of krix at 02:27 PM | comments (14)
October 23, 2002


tribe | from inside the mind of krix at 08:25 PM | comments (2)
Stock up on dark ink

I'm working on November's calendar, using one of those exquisite Sunny Bak images from Elsinore.
It's going to be freaking gorgeous (if I do say so myself).

Also, here's this week's Virgo horoscope from FreeWillAstrology.com

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): It'll be a zigzag, flip-flop, which-end-is-up week, Virgo. Every plot twist will quickly split into at least two further plot twists; anything that looks like a trick ending will lead to what looks like another trick ending. Your natural talents for thinking on your feet and adapting on the fly
will be even better than usual, though, so you're poised to thrive in slippery conditions that may befuddle weaker minds. My advice? Act as if there's no script for the unfolding drama; treat every situation like an improv exercise in an acting class.

doodles | from inside the mind of krix at 03:21 PM | comments (1)
Empire UK '94 article

Thanks to kaz for these scans from Empire UK mag from 1994. I hadn't read this article before and the Gorman pics are a nice bonus.
(click the images for full size)

media spot | from inside the mind of krix at 02:05 PM | comments (4)
Dude! You're gettin' a....shut up already.

Blatantly stolen from Wil Wheaton, who blatantly stole it from BBSpot, and since they're friends, I expect to be hunted down and flogged. Which is OK, although in my fantasy it's actually Worf, not Wesley who....erm, I digress.

Reasons Steve from Dell Should be Fired

11. Michael Dell tired of hearing "Dude you're getting a... you!"
10. Addiction to canned air becoming a real problem.
9. Was seen near the HP headquarters wearing a cow costume.
8. Too many girls are buying computers.
7. More "computer savvy" Wil Wheaton close to signing a deal.
6. Consumers feel Steve talks too high tech.
5. Bidding war with The McLaughlin Group quickly reaching stratosphere.
4. Simon Cowell thinks his performance is complete rubbish.
3. His MENSA wrap parties get too out of hand.
2. Keanu Reeves threatened identity theft lawsuit.
1. Market research show dude market completely saturated.

Exsqueeze me, but Steve "Dude, you're gettin' a Dell" guy is SO not Ted.
Any idiot can see that he's Bill.


it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 11:12 AM | comments (4)
October 21, 2002
Here's this

Hey, I have something to blog after all.
The lovely Miho has posted her reviews of Dogstar's show in Bangkok over at her site.

So go check that out.

Still no word on any new dates, I'm still hoping, though.

dogstar rocks | from inside the mind of krix at 01:43 PM | comments (0)
50 Questions answered

Oh, what the hell. I don't have anything else to blog today...

It's everywhere, I found it over at Veshka's.

1. Your name spelled backwards: NITSIRK

2. Where were your parents born? Minnesota.

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Not counting pictures, a Hoopty mp3.

4. What's your favorite restaurant? something Lotus, it's a Thai restaurant my brother and I always go to when he's in town.

5. Last time you swam in a pool? It's been so long I can't remember, a couple summers ago.

6. Have you ever been in a school play? Yep, a few

7. How many kids do you want? None.

8. Type of music you dislike most? I like all kinds of music, but I can't listen to speed metal for very long.

9. Are you registered to vote? Yes.

10. Do you have cable? No. shocking, huh?

11. Have you ever ridden on a moped? Yes. I've spilled on one, too.

12. Ever prank call anybody? Hasn't everyone? I think I was around 9 or 10 at the time. Why did we think that was fun?

13. Ever get a parking ticket? Yes - my car broke down and was maybe a foot into a business driveway. I was away for maybe 10 minutes to call AAA and got a ticket. Finks.

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? I've bungee jumped and have to say I would never EVER do it again. And I can't see the point of jumping out of a perfectly good airplane, either.

15. Furthest place you ever traveled? Minnesota when I was a kid.

16. Do you have a garden? No, I'm bad with plants of any kind...

17. What's your favorite comic strip? All time? Bloom County. Current? Get Fuzzy

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? Yes. And I can name all the states in alphabetical order, too. I cannot, however, pronounce the state that Boston is in without tripping over my tongue.

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night? Shower-morning. I wish I had a nice tub, I would take luxurious baths more often.

20. Best movie you've seen in the past month? I actually enjoyed Monsters Inc. quite a bit.

21. Favorite pizza topping? Olives

22. Chips or popcorn? Chips, salt and vinegar. yum

23. What color lipstick do you usually wear? When I do, it's red.

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells? Are you smoking them right now? That's a weird question.

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? No, but I won "Most Beautiful" costume in an Easter parade once. I was a chick hatching out of a egg.

26. Orange Juice or apple? Orange, with lots of pulp.

27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine? Roi, we had Mexican at Robertos.

28. Favorite type chocolate bar? Dark choclate

29. When was the last time you voted at the polls? Last year.

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? A few months agao, from my Dad's garden.

31. Have you ever won a trophy? No, I have a couple plaques and certificates, though.

32. Are you a good cook? I'm a great cook.

33. Do you know how to pump your own gas? Yes. Keeping my blinker fluid topped off continues to elude, however.

34. Ever order an article from an infomercial? Ack! No, but I bought a purse from the Home Shopping Network once.

35. Sprite or 7-up? 7-Up. Although not so much since Orlando Jones was replaced.

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? I had to follow the Starbucks code for a year or so.

37. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? Cigarettes.

38. Ever throw up in public? Hasn't everyone? It has been quite a while though.

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love? Love. Love. Love. I'd sleep in a ditch if I loved someone enough.

40. Do you believe in love at first sight? It can happen. Just not every time you think it is.

41. Ever call a 1-900 number? No, but I worked at one for a while.

42. Can ex's be friends? Only after a certain amount of time, I think. I still loathe my most recent ex, but am friends with some of the others.

43. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital? My ex's grandma.

44. Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby? Yep, and it was blonde.

45. What message is on your answering machine? Generic Robotic Sprint PCS voicemail message. I never bothered learning how to change it.

46. What's your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character? Dan Akroyd's creepy salesman, can't remember his name.

47. What was the name of your first pet? A poodle named Michelle

48. What is in your purse? Way too much crap, and a layer of tobacco at the bottom

49. Favorite thing to do before bedtime? Um, I'd say have sex but these days it's read email.

50. What is one thing you are grateful for today? That the spider on the ceiling of my office remains in his corner of the room.

it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 01:05 PM | comments (4)
October 20, 2002
Highlights from last night....

Roi and I got goofy and bored so we decided to play "Who would win in a fistfight?"

"Freddy Krueger or Edward Scissorhands?"

Freddy, because Edward is naturally good hearted, wouldn't be as into it.

"David Bowie or Paul McCartney?"

Gotta give Bowie that one. Paul's a big wussy vegetarian, plus I think Bowie has the height advantage.

"Maury Povich or Jerry Springer?"

Gotta give it to Maury, the height advantage again...although Springer might have that bulldog quality. Montel would beat both their asses.

"Joan Jett or..."

Joan Jett.

"Gwenyth Paltrow or Reese Witherspoon?"

Reese of course, although it really doesn't matter because I'm pretty sure anyone could beat Gwenyth's ass...

"Gwenyth or Calista Flockheart?"

...except Calista Flockheart

"Ricky Martin or Enrique Igleseas?"

I don't care, as long as it's to the death.

We also decided that Jack Traven vs. Johnny Utah would be a great match.
Hard to say who would win that one. Might come down to Johnny's damn knee again.
I'll have to ponder this further.
I also think having them both shirtless might be crucial to the outcome so I'll ponder that as well.

off topic | from inside the mind of krix at 10:21 AM | comments (15)
October 19, 2002

I'm taking the day off.


You can't make me blog...nope...won't do it.


it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 03:23 PM
October 18, 2002
Teased! Again!

Thanks to penelopez of KeanuSite for the tip that there are 6 new teaser posters out for The Matrix Reloaded, and they can be found at Ain't It Cool news...
or they could, rather if AICN's server wasn't taking a beating on that particular page.
They can be found at TheMatrixOnline or KeanuWeb.com, too.
The teaser posters live up to the "tease" part of the name, as they don't show you the whole face of the subject. They're really spiffy though, and I'd bet that they will be popping up on eBay before too long. All six would be a nice collection for all you hardcore Matrix buffs.

Of course, I simply had to make new wallpaper with the Neo one...

800 x 600

1024 x 768

And I want this outfit.

doodles , red pill | from inside the mind of krix at 03:43 PM | comments (3)
good morning

If you haven't read the lovely Akemi's concert reports over at the DMB, you should probably do that.

Oh, and Happy Ass Friday.

mmmmm, I love to watch him walk away

spoony | from inside the mind of krix at 09:06 AM | comments (3)
October 17, 2002
Tell me what to watch!

I just realized that now that I have a DVD player I can join NetFlix. It's perfect because I am a rental criminal when it comes to late fees, I gave up renting videos a while back because it was just cheaper to buy them.
Click here for a look at what I have in my rental queue so far.
Anyway, I need your help. I need movie recommendations.
Assume that I haven't seen anything but Keanu's films in the past...oh..three years or so and you'd be about right. There's SO MANY movies that I haven't seen I can't even begin to make a list.
So please leave a comment and make some suggestions.

off topic | from inside the mind of krix at 01:25 PM | comments (11)
Pink Ribbon

october is breast cancer awareness month

Thank you to kaz for this scan of Keanu from PinkRibbon magazine.
October is breast cancer awareness month and Keanu went out of his way to do this photo before he left Australia, in support of the National Breast Cancer Foundation.

Here are some other links if you'd like to learn more and see what you can do to help.
The Susan G. Komen Breast Cancer Foundation
National Alliance of Breast Cancer Organizations
CIGNA Foundation (go here and click the pink ribbon)

media spot | from inside the mind of krix at 11:23 AM | comments (12)
October 16, 2002
Search me

I've added a Google-powered search box down at the bottom of the sidebar.
With over 400 blog entries, I thought it might be helpful.
It's ugly and I hate it, but it will have to do until I either get the courage to upgrade to MT 2.5 myself, or have the right combination of good timing and suckupititude to talk kd into doing it. Or maybe she can just help me with applying a style to it (gosh...I hope she reads this).
I rather like the fact that it searches the whole site, including the Backlot, the Revisited recap and even comments.

Speaking of kd, go check out her son's photoblog at kurtwood.com. I don't know how many 5-year-olds have their own domain, but then, I don't know how many have such an outstanding photographic eye, either.

the site | from inside the mind of krix at 07:30 PM | comments (4)
Art and Horoscopes

Matt from River's Edge by Maribel

Another great drawing by Maribel, this is of Keanu as Matt in River's Edge.

And here's this week's Virgo (Keanu's sign) horoscope from freewillastrology.com

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): I've been working on a do-it-yourself manual for the new "Just Drop It" school of psychotherapy. It'll be pretty short. In the introduction, I'll tell you to procure a cheap briefcase and fill it up with a hundred pounds of rocks. On page two I'll suggest that you imagine the briefcase is stuffed with emotional baggage you can't seem to let go, memories you love to hate, and annoying frustrations you never get tired of complaining about. The third page will insinuate that maybe you should actually carry this terrible burden around with you everywhere you go for an entire week.
On the fourth and last page, I'll offer the simple, elegant cure: JUST DROP IT!

spoony | from inside the mind of krix at 01:13 PM | comments (4)
October 15, 2002
Rhonda doth ROCK muchly

I got a suprise package in the mail today...


Very cool, and great timing, since I wore my keanuvision hoodie to work today and was burning up.


tribe | from inside the mind of krix at 02:54 PM | comments (6)
October 14, 2002
Master Thespian

One of the things I admire about Keanu Reeves is simply that he is an actor. He makes his living doing something that he loves, something that too few people can say.
I wanted to be an actor (or actress as we so un-PC-ly termed it "back in the day") for as long as I can remember. If I had a scanner I would dig out and share some early pictures of myself, up on the picnic table in our backyard, putting on shows for the family. I lived for the little pagents and talent shows in elementary school. I think the first character I ever played was Betsy Ross in a little "To Tell The Truth"-type skit in first or second grade. I was a shy kid, socially, but I loved putting on a character and performing.
In junior high, I was in choir and we put on a Christmas musical. I was just a member of the chorus until one of the girls with an actual speaking part got suspended for something. Another girl got her part and I got moved up to her role. It was a street-urchin. I had lines and everything, I also had to sing solo in one of the songs. "~Show me how to manage it- a diamond ring or two..I want to be an expert...and do it just like you!~" My singing sucked. I was nervous and my voice cracked, but I loved being on stage. When I got to high school, I signed up for Theatre as my elective. My first real role was as "Lettie", the saucy cockney maid in the mystery spoof "Something's Afoot". My first line was a scream. Literally.
It was that year in high school I also got to do a local commercial, a PSA spot for a youth counseling center.
Just me, saying my lines walking through a park. I can still recite them verbatum.

"A couple of months ago I had a lot of problems. I was failing in school and always in trouble at home. My whole life was one big mess. Now, thanks to 'Youth Manor', I'm back in control of me. I can deal with my problems, and I can talk to my parents again. That means a lot to me...and to them. Thanks, 'Youth Manor'....for being there when I needed you."

I actually nailed it on the first take, but the cameraman messed up so I had to do it two more times. The spot aired every day on channel 8 during the "Tom and Jerry" cartoon hour. I must have been pretty convincing because my family was bombarded with calls about me being in trouble. My mother got tired of it, but I was thrilled. All I wanted was to be an actress. I transferred high-schools to one with a better theatre program, and was cast in one of the three speaking roles in the fall play. 75 girls tried out. I loved everything about performing. Never got stage fright, never had opening-night jitters ( unless I had to sing)...it was so my calling. When I went to college the only classes I managed to make it to were my theatre ones. I loved my professors and they loved me. I know I had talent, but I was lacking in the crucial element of ambition. My esteem wouldn't survive the rejection involved with moving to LA to chase the dream. I found myself listening to the voices that said...'stay home'...'be safe and comfortable' ....Hollywood? New York? THERE BE DRAGONS.
Dragons with clipboards and scowls and less-than-constructive critcism.
I chickened out of a Cal-Arts callback and went to work for my family.
I took business courses.
I gave up. And yes, I regret it. Yes, I always wonder what could have been.
Could I have played Sara or Annie or Ms. Wilkes? I'll never know.
Every once in a while, I see an audition or something, but I never follow through. Still too comfy in my comfort zone.
But I still get to act, sometimes. Everybody does, really. Most jobs require you to "act" in some fashion. You act like you know what you're doing...act like you give a shit.
And there's always freelance thespianism.
When ever I get the chance, I act.
Just a little harmless role-playing...I have to choose the situation wisely, because there's a fine line between being a freelance-covert-guerrilla performer and being a pathological liar. And as in any performance, one must have the proper motivation.
My most recent performance was yesterday at a customer service counter. The facts being, I bought something that was not to my liking and wanted to return it. The fiction being, said product caused my "family" dismay and inconvenience and nearly caused a rift between I and my usually loving, hardworking husband.
I nailed it.
The thing about freelance thespianism is that you must gage your performance not by applause or reviews or curtain calls, but by results and reactions. And yesterday I received the Golden Globe of customer service stagework.

A double refund.

Thank you....call my agent, we'll do lunch.

off topic | from inside the mind of krix at 03:53 PM | comments (6)
October 13, 2002
Sunday muse

Keanu plays bass at The Odeon, photo from The Daily Thud

It was not that he was beautiful.
True, he stood upon the stage,
Absorbed and indifferent as the adoration fell.
It was not that he was beautiful.
There were others, despite the legend,
as gracious, as tall.
It was not that he was beautiful,
but she stared and stared...

(credit goes to Sparrowhawk for this, my apologies for posting it not knowing where it was from and without permission)

I don't remember who wrote this, I found it in my files.
psychobabble.txt was the filename.
There were some lyrics of Bret's beneath it.
It's possible I wrote it, or one of my friends.
If you recognize it, let me know.

Mystery solved, it was Sparrowhawk.
Details in the comments.

spoony | from inside the mind of krix at 03:32 PM | comments (7)
October 12, 2002
OK, so I bought more DVDs


OH! My dirty mind....

And yes, I'm still just taking pictures of the TV.

it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 07:52 PM | comments (11)
Get thee to the DMB-Miho ROCKS!

Miho has posted a short report for the Bangkok show over at the Dogstar Message Board.
Try this link and scroll down.
Traffic is crazy on the board though, so you might have a little trouble getting in but keep trying.
Sounds like a good night.

By the way, here's the schedule for the next 3 shows in Japan-

10/13/02 - 7pm - Osaka, Japan - Osaka On Air
10/14/02 - 7pm - Okayama, Japan - Tivoli Park
10/15/02 - 7pm - Tokyo, Japan - Ebisu Garden Hall

------Edited to add Miho's post since the board seems to be inaccesable to some of you.

"Hi.Thanks for your wishes.

Dog guys arrived at Osaka tonight and Akemi and me came back to Japan. Now 2:15 so till 2:30 I will post my short report in Bangkok.

I said I would not post at all till 20th,but I can not help posting the report here...

From 10th to 12th in Thailand it was so sunny.We don't have rain at all. Bangkok show was supported by many sponsors so it was a biiig event. We arrived at the venue at 2:00 to check inside.It was so big venue and 2 screens were both side.And staffs checked lighting and display manuplating,I think those video was produced by TV Channel V but the shooting was so great.I wonder where to get the Dogstar program by Cannel V.You must see it!!And its sound effective was so great.We enjoyed Dogstar guys music so much.

Akemi and another friend and me made a line from at 3:00 o'clock. Two 19 years old girls already was here.They were so nice and gracious.We can't speak in Thainese but only in English a little,so we talk about ourselves in English. I know many friends in Thailand so I was so glad to see nice girls.(That is another Dogstar show surprise,as you already know!!)After introducing myself,a girl said to me "I think you are in Thai land and I wonder why you don't speak in Thainese".It's great for me.If possible,I would like to be familiar with the people in Thailand.In my right side 2 boys were there.And when I asked them if they like Keanu,one of them said "I love Keanu" and he became bashful and say nothing.I said "Me,too!" as a follow but it did not work(^o^).

It was the show time!
People in Thailnad respect their king very much,so the majesting songs flows before entertainment shows like as movies and concerts to pray kings health and the peace of the kingdom. It was so interesting for me.
And after 2 minutes They appeard.The girls cried "Keeenuuu".And their eyes were focused to our bass player.And they begun playing.

Their song list is here.(I think.)

Slipping Down
Your World
I Confess
A Dream Time
Blown Away
(at encore)Accoustic - Wish you were here.
(at encore) Accoustic - (sorry I don't know what song he played next)
(at encore) America
(at encore) Blessed
(at encore) Denial - (new version,I think)

At first the people seemed not to listen to their music(It's natural,because they don't know their songs at all.But graduately as I know ,the people around me responded to their songs.I think it's genuinely great.I think they will like Dogstar's music.Especially Flowers,Blessed,Denial,Your world.

Bret's guitar technique was so great that at first their interests were focused to our bass player but the people in front of Bret become rocking.And our drummer's technique also was amazing and sensitive!
And Bass sound was so sweet and gentle totally.
Thailand people enjoyed their music so much.And Our bass player introduced Dogstar members to help them understanding."Lead Guitar(or Vocal?) is Bret and the drummer is Rob and me Keanu Reeves,We are DOGSTAR!! Koppun Krap(correct spelling is unknown."Thanks" in Thailand)" after Bret's accoustic.I think it was so effective,so it made the people response change.I was moved by their shouting to require encore "Dogstar! Dogstar!"... I think "Yes! They learned Dogstar music!!"

Really it was great show.I hope tomorrow show will be more excellent!
We will make it together!!

I'm sorry but my report is full rough sentences.I will go to sleep... Good night!


dogstar rocks | from inside the mind of krix at 03:49 PM | comments (4)
New Backlot Additions

Added 4 of Keanu's films to Cheryl's Movie Backlot.
Below are some of Cheryl's quotes, click them to check out her entries on I Love You to Death, Little Buddha, Feeling Minnesota, and Chain Reaction...

Moler saw this story as an "ideal comedy feature film." Go figure.

Not many celebrity fans can boast that their object of affection has played the founder of one of the world's major religions.

Perhaps Baigelman summed it up best: "It's not boy meets girl, boy loses girl, boy gets girl. It's more like boy meets girl, has sex, finds girl's dead body, and buries her. That sort of thing."

So what went wrong? Keanu said "its the hardest film I've ever done." That's okay- its the hardest Keanu film I've ever sat through.

Also, while looking around this morning I came across some behind-the-scenes photos from FM taken by Wilson Webb

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More photos from the set of FM can be found here.
No others of Keanu, but nice just the same.

the site | from inside the mind of krix at 12:05 PM | comments (2)
October 11, 2002
I really want to go off, but I won't.

It's called boundries, people.
Just because the media don't (doesn't?) seem to mind them, doesn't mean a little common sense can't be shown.
That's all I'm going to say. If you don't know what I'm talking about, good.

That being said..
Happy Ass Friday

it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 01:20 PM | comments (9)
October 10, 2002
I'd title this "bang a kok"...but that would be wrong

Do you realize that the Bangkok concert is in, like...eight and a half hours?
(from the time of this post, and now it's even sooner....)

World Time Clock:Bangkok

Maybe I'll be able to astral project in the wee hours of the morning.
It could happen.

Also, thank you to Keanuette and Jena for this cute article...

Keanu the musician hams it up with Dogstar

Published on Oct 11, 2002

Known for his good looks and roles in movie blockbusters, Keanu Reeves is in Thailand not as a Hollywood star but to play bass for his band Dogstar, performing tonight at the Indoor Stadium Huamark at 8pm.

Appearing unshaved in a T-shirt, black jacket and with tousled hair, Reeves led his band mates Bret Domrose and Rob Mailhouse in a relaxed, joking interview. "Pop-rock, rock n'roll, alternative and impressionistic are all mixed in our music," said guitarist and vocalist Bret Domrose. "Oh, he loves Julie Andrews," says Domrose of Reeves. "Oh yeah. Edelweis, Edelweiss…Edelweiss," sang Reeves to much laughter.

The band is hoping to explore Thailand as much as their short sojourn will permit.

"I want to see the Grand Palace," said Reeves enthusiastically. "We want to go shopping and to the beaches to catch the sun," said drummer Mailhouse.

Coming from perennially sunny LA, the band was not put off by the prospect of flooding, and seemed to relish the prospect of adventure. Getting stuck on an island appealed to Reeves, who said he would forage for food and water like the contestants in the TV show "Survivor". Domrose said he would make a stupid soccer ball called Wilson as in the film "Castaway". Mailhouse added that he would "masturbate", much to the shock of a female reporter and the laughter of the gathered crowd.

With Reeves' acting career taking him away on movie shoots, how often do they get together to practise their music?

"Every eclipse," joked Reeves.

Music idols and influences are varied and include John Lennon, The Beatles and Pete Townshend.

Dogstar's rise began when they supported Bon Jovi's tour of Australia and New Zealand in 1995. With the help of Reeves' Hollywood fame, Dogstar's popularity skyrocketed.

They released a four-song EP entitled "Quattro Formaggi" and then the album "Our Little Visionary" in 1996. The latest album, "Happy Ending", was released in 2000 and includes a cover of The Carpenters' song "Superstar".

The band says freedom and enjoyment have kept them going this long, and they love to perform.

"As long as people show up to enjoy the music, that's all that matters," said Domrose.


...and now it's even sooner.

And now it's sooner still.

dogstar rocks | from inside the mind of krix at 09:33 PM | comments (6)
Misc. blogfiller

keanuvision.com is a DVD player that bounces up and down and keeps your breath fresh for up to twenty-four hours.

via bitchery.net
Rob Brezsny's Virgo Horoscope for week of October 10, 2002

The other night I met a Navajo medicine woman who showed me the "squat of power" practiced by the Pleiadean star people. She said it would free me of any urge to watch TV, and it did. She also gave me a karma-free spell to unbind me from my enemies (it worked!), and slipped me some hot financial tips she'd gleaned on the astral plane from a departed spirit that used to work at Goldman Sachs. Sorry I can't reveal any of these useful hints to you, Virgo; the medicine woman swore me to secrecy. Don't feel deprived, though: You'll soon tap into equally exotic sources that will provide you with equally practical advice.


And here's a couple more pics from Thailand (click for pop-up image)
Thanks, Jena.

it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 04:42 PM | comments (11)
That's Simulated Amore

Let's see what's going on with SimKrix and SimKeanu...

Lime green sofas are SUCH a turn on

It's the first kiss, and a lip-bruiser at that.
You'll notice his hand is totally on my ass.
My Sim is a complete slut.
I have no idea where she gets it from.

Sim Krix apparently misunderstands Keanu's offer to "play with his equipment."

Rock on

He was very annoyed when I picked up his guitar.
So we compromise, and make a little beautiful music together.


That went so well, Keanu offers to teach me chess.

Which way does the little horsey move again?

I'm a fast learner and trounced him. Whee! Checkmate!


He threw the cutest little fit after being beat, too.
A little sweet talk and backrub did the trick, though.


And another great kiss out in the courtyard. Notice the doubleplusses.
So sweet. But can it last?

We'll see.....

simulated | from inside the mind of krix at 11:58 AM | comments (8)
October 09, 2002
It's official

Hoopty is the sexiest boy in all of blogland!

Be a blog groupie! click here!

(scroll down to the Crimson and Clover post, and listen. SQUEAL!)

I swear, between the boys in Dogstar and this I'm going to have to go get a towel.

tribe | from inside the mind of krix at 08:31 PM | comments (5)
Greetings from Thailand (Wish I were THERE)

So here are the three most recent pictures of Keanu from Thailand...

Keanu in Thailand

Great googly-moogly he looks wonderful.

pic source credits
club-keanu (via Jena)
Keanu Pic-of-the-Day Club

A lovely large version of the middle pic can be found here and thank you to Margarete of POTD for sending out this picture of the whole band at a Thai TV interview [click for pop-up pic].

Bret looks YUMMY!

dogstar rocks | from inside the mind of krix at 12:57 PM | comments (9)
Art worthy of him

It's my pleasure to be able to share with you this wonderful drawing of Keanu done by a very talented lady and DogstarFan, Maribel.

Keanu by Maribel

I've seen other people's drawings and no one captures him so truly as Maribel.
She really is gifted and I hope to be able to share some more of her work in the future.

spoony | from inside the mind of krix at 12:22 PM | comments (2)
Happy Birthday

Ben and Mena ROCK

Happy Birthday to the glorious brainchild of Ben and Mena Trott, Movable Type.

I could wax poetic about how much I love MT. I really do love my blog. I wouldn't do it if I didn't and having the right tool for the job is a big part of that.
Here's wishing them continued success.

off topic | from inside the mind of krix at 11:31 AM | comments (0)
The One Zero Zero One One...

As requested, here's that ASCII pic as a wallpaper.

800 x 600
1024 x 768

This wallpaper comes with trivia.
The sequence on the left?
Actually his name in binary code.

Yep, I'm THAT geeky.

doodles | from inside the mind of krix at 08:26 AM | comments (4)
October 08, 2002
One night in Bangkok

...then a couple more in Japan.
Dogstar has touched down in Thailand.
The lovely Miho of 999.squares.net will be going to all the upcoming shows (I think) and hopefully she'll have some stories to tell and maybe even pics when she gets back.
You can read her post over at the Dogstar Message Board that (no longer) includes a picture of Keanu just taken in Bangkok. Or you can go check out her site, where it's also posted. And scroll down for a peek at some of the posters for the Thailand and Japan shows.

Looks like he shaved.

I hope these shows go well and the guys come back ready to play more in the states.

dogstar rocks | from inside the mind of krix at 01:36 PM | comments (2)

Why am I up at 1 am?

NEW TOY* (click to see!)

I don't know what I'm going to do with it, but zoiks...it's neat, huh?

*mosASCII tool found via badh*p

off topic | from inside the mind of krix at 01:10 AM | comments (10)
October 07, 2002
KAZ continues to rule

Another scan, kourtesy my keanupal, kaz from down under.
This is from the October 14 issue of NW..


Nice smile, eh?

media spot | from inside the mind of krix at 05:08 PM | comments (3)
October 06, 2002
Ode to a belly scar

belly scar

Mmmm...your belly scar.
snakey sinewy exclamation
with the point behind your button fly
where once scalpel slid
and suture stitched
now a permanent living
band-aid made
of D.N.A.
cellular sculpture
on another disfiguring
on you
taut tantalizing texture
waiting to be read
like secret language
makes me want to touch and trace
tongue and taste
and hear the story told
dangerboy on his dangerous toy
chicks do dig scars
I want to see it above me
and then below
I want to know
your belly scar...

spoony | from inside the mind of krix at 10:24 AM | comments (9)
October 05, 2002
Silly Feckin' Rabbit

silly rabbit on a jones

I pretty much got nothin' today.

Actually, I also have this...
Roi's CD is in "post production" and I'm working on the cover.


jamais vu

noun. The illusion or impression of never having experienced something that has actually been experienced many times before (cf. déjà vu).

tribe | from inside the mind of krix at 11:00 AM | comments (7)
October 04, 2002
Clear your caches

Played around with some new graphics this morning. Did some fine tuning on the rest of the site, the calendar page now has the same look as most of the rest. I thought about re-working the wallpaper albums, but changed my mind. They'll have to stay black.
I think I'm getting the sickness that everyone else is getting. Or it's just nauseating ennui.

October 8th, Dogstar can be spotted on some program called Rank on the egregious E! network. And of course, the shows in Thailand and Japan are coming up in a week or so. Maybe we'll get lucky and get some pictures.
I hope these shows go well, and the guys decide to do some US dates before the bass player gets caught up in his next project.
Come to Vegas, Dogstar. Please.

Oh, and Happy Ass Friday....


the site | from inside the mind of krix at 11:53 AM | comments (11)
October 03, 2002
Absolutely Dogulous

Once again, kaz comes through with some scans.
This is from Face magazine in 1993.

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I love to see Reeves get his jam on.

dogstar rocks | from inside the mind of krix at 04:37 PM | comments (6)
Pictures worth 1000 words

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spoony | from inside the mind of krix at 12:02 PM | comments (11)
October 02, 2002
This week for Virgo

Rob Brezsny says:

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): Is it true that you're fantasizing about being possessed by blind, reeling obsession? That's what my spies tell me, Virgo. They say you're so weary of the meticulous approach you usually cultivate that you secretly wish you could be taken and shaken, flipped and flopped, zoomed and boomed by a flood of uncontrollable feelings. While I appreciate your yearning for an outbreak of head-spinning passion, I believe you can arrange for it to occur in less drastic fashion. I beg you, therefore, to dream about indulging in a refined spree, a discerning bacchanal, a measured mania.

Or, you know...just take a nice warm bath.


it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 04:07 PM | comments (4)
Backlot update, and then some

Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure and Permanent Record have both been added for discussion over at Cheryl's Movie Backlot.

And speaking of the Two Great Ones, BillandTed.org was updated recently and you can view a video clip of the intro to the animated series over there, along with all kinds of other things Bill and Ted-ish.

Lastly, please make sure your virus software is up-to-date. A new one seems to be making the rounds and it's one of those that spoof addresses, and cause all kinds of trouble. I got two of them today (which I deleted unopened), and I also heard from someone that got one from my address. Which of course was spoofed. As a general rule, I NEVER send attachments unless it's expected (i.e., You write and ask for something). If I have something to share, I'll blog it. So if you ever get an unexpected email from any @keanuvision email, just delete it.
One of the reasons I continue to use AOHell as an ISP is because it never automatically downloads files when you open an email. I have all my keanuvision mail forwarded and if I see something weird, I go to my webmail server and delete it unopened.
I also use Norton, but if anyone needs virus protection, you might check out AVG, it has a free version and is frequently updated.

the site | from inside the mind of krix at 12:31 PM | comments (2)
October 01, 2002
Pick me up

I really do have things I should be doing besides browsing eBay, but I just can't help myself. I haven't bought anything for a while, but I like to make sure I'm not missing anything. One of the items that comes up every once in a while is a guitar pick.

click image to go to the auction page

Twenty bucks plus will get you a tiny piece of plastic that once rode around in his pocket (maybe). I'll pass.

Now, I do have one of Bret's picks that I got at the Santa Clara show (April '01). Yes, I admit that I tipped the bouncer 10 bucks to snag it off the stage for me, but in my defense a) I was actually at the show, so it has actual memories attached. b) I was hella drunk AND it was my birthday. c) I actually use it to play with (when I get around to playing).

I can't see buying one at auction, though.
Picks and drumsticks are great souvenirs from a show, and I bet with a little feminine effort, you could get one from the source.
Here's my suggestion: Go to the boys department of your local whatever-mart and pick out the smallest white t-shirt that you can still squeeze into. And grab a pack of iron-on paper for your printer, too.
Click the image below for a reversed, ready-to-print iron-on, print it out and apply it across the chest.

click here

Get creative, slit the collar, cut off the bottom and make it a belly shirt, go nuts. As long as the message can be read. Now, wear it under whatever you wear to the show and wait for a good opportunity to flash your message. The mere act of taking off your shirt is sure to get some attention.
Timing is key. Your odds are better toward the end of a song at the end of the set.
A smile and a shimmy can't hurt either.

Good luck!

it wahs | from inside the mind of krix at 02:23 PM | comments (7)
More Meta Keanu

click for a larger detailed view

I know, but they're so fun to make!

doodles | from inside the mind of krix at 09:00 AM | comments (2)